i've been asked a lot lately how my summer has been. i hate the question. not always, i just hate it right now. because my summer has been non-eventful and boring. i can't help but think it's just been a waste of time. i've neither progressed or advanced in the least in any aspect of life. that's the saddest part of the whole thing. and i've been working a job i don't like and where the hours have kept me from being able to hang out regularly with a lot of friends. there's been a lot of time being by myself - too much time actually. it's made me feel terribly lonely. much of this time has been spent going over what i've done, what i could have done, where i could be and where i'm not. it's depressing.
believe it or not i've been in and out of a depression since shortly before i moved out of the house i lived in with brittan. ... ... that was four years ago. so if i've not fully answered your questions or have been ducking out early or not fully laughing at your jokes, it's because i'm not happy. i'd write more but it would long and drawn out.
cheers . . ..
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Yep! Been in one of those since December - know what it's like! Sucks! And yet it's a comfortable state of being as well sometimes - at least I always seem to welcome it back like an old friend! Will be praying for ya! Was great to hang out with you yesterday - and absolute hoot! And with 'ol beady eyes too!
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