thanks jonathan

saturday night's get together at jonathan's was a really good time. there was fellowship, food, drinks, laughs, music, and song. i felt warmed. it was so beautiful that i cried. i felt there was a bond there between everyone that only the closeness of community can bring. we're all friends. we came together and kept in our minds that christ was central in this. it's the kind of happiness and joy that i feel during these times that i want everyone to know! my heart aches because not everyone does know this. i let god know that his works are great and so is his love. i also prayed for those who don't know him and praised him for his work through me.

for the majority of yesterday, i was sad because i wanted a friend i know to have been there and experienced that kind of awesomeness saturday night. i've made some terrible mistakes as a friend lately and i didn't know how to ask her to come. i feel bad. i feel guilty. during this time in her life, she needs comfort, safety - a good friend. i'm really sad about things and inside i hurt soooooo much. and this is just another blow that's bringing me down.

cheers . . ..